I wrote a few days ago about how I was done.
Today I hit bottom. Matthew sent me out on my own tonight to get some stuff done and so that I could have some alone time in the car with just me, some great music, and God. This song never fails to lift me up.
I’d love to write about how I am feeling, but I am physically unable to. I am spiritually unable to. I am emotionally unable to.
If you pray, pray for me. If you don’t pray, please just send warm wishes my way. I really need it.
My spiritual cup feels empty and it needs refilling.
I need more time alone (That little time today helped to get some splashes in my cup).
Faith Like a Child, right?
Maybe I should just watch these three and learn a thing or two.
Hi Angella,
I read you all the time and just wanted to let you know that I will say a prayer for you. I’m not sure about what is going on in your life right now to make you feel this way, or if it has just sort of come out of no where. Either way, I would suggest, from personal experience, not to let your blues get too far out of hand before you choose to get some help.
Take care Angella!
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You and your family are in my prayers tonight-I totally get the words you used- spiritually empty, emotionally empty. Empty isnt even a strong enough word sometimes.
keep strong.
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Awe. My poor, wilted, little maple leaf!!!
I agree with you about the combination of being overly optimistic and a very hard worker being a lethal combination. I am extremely pessimistic with a nasty streak of lazy, and that isn’t a picnic either.
It sounds like you have hit a point where you need to recharge: Find soothing, joyful, calming things that lift and fill you up so that you are ready to face the world again.
HUGS and warm, warm, thoughts to you!
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Praying for you Angella….
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I’m praying for you, sister.
Some verses for you today: Psalm 46 v 1, Matthew 6 v 7-8.
((HUGS)) … love you!
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I know just how you feel. How can we feel so put out when we have these wonderful children around?
I was just kissing sleeping Makenna’s cheek and apologizing to her for losing my cool over something really stupid.
I feel beat myself most of the time, but I’m not balancing work on top of THREE kids like you! You’re amazing!
Isn’t it funny how some alone time in the car with music is so calming? And alone time? Ahhhhhhhh.
Sending warm fuzzies and a couple prayers your way
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Thinking of you, and praying for you too!
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I will pray for you.
It will get better.
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I will be praying for you.
I have been feeling very empty in the last little while as well, so I can sympathize with what you’re feeling.
This weekend I am escaping with a few friends to have a quiet retreat away from the hustle and bustle of life, and I hope God meets us there. We’re all in need of refreshment.
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Aw, I’m so sorry, Angella. I’ll be thinking of you, and I hope you feel better soon.
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I’ve been there before, too! I’m praying God will really bless you in the next day or so, in such a real, tangible way that you have no doubt that it is God expressing how much He loves you!
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Time to get out that list of You-Tube funny videos to watch. The crazy bride one was the best!!
I personally feel like every second of my day is dedicated to my boys and there is rarely even time for me to pee, let alone take time to dedicate to myself…so in some ways I feel your pain and I wish you some happy ME time and a breath of fresh air and many daisies. Hopefully you can feel refreshed. Making cards and dinner out with the girls just wasn’t quite enough, hey??
Hugs and prayers from me
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I hope you find some peace soon!
We’re off camping Friday night to try to relax (although how relaxing will fit in with a toddler I’m not sure). Even church isn’t refreshing these days as I spend the whole time either playing with Duncan in the foyer or sitting there knowing he’s crying up in the creche (he hates it for some unknown reason) – can’t wait until he’s old enough to go to the Sunday gang instead.
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I love that last one of graham and emily!
feel better!
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….Love and Blessing to you…
‘ My Soul: your wishes bud
My Will: your deeds flourish
My Life: your fruits ripen.
I feel my destiny,
My destiny finds me.
I feel my star,
My star finds me.
I feel my aims,
My aims find me.
My soul and the world are but one.
Life, you grow brighter around me,
Life you grow harder for me,
Life you grow richer within me.’
R.Steiner
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Well, this seems as good a time as any to make myself known. I’ve been lurking around your blog for a while now – found you through Hannah. Praying that your cup would runneth over with good things. And that God would fill you up with his love. I climbed up a mountain today (ok so it was a small one) and God met me there at the top. May God meet you wherever you are at today.
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Angella:
I don’t know what specific issues you are facing right now..perhaps it is just EVERYTHING and raising three children and the daily stresses from that. Goodness knows, that is enough to send us over the edge many days.
I will be praying for you. That God will give you the peace and restoration that you need. I hope you can get some more time alone to recharge.
And DON’T let it get out of hand – I too know that from experience.
I read this quote from Lisa Beamer in a Women of Faith Magazine and thought it was very wonderful for me at least. It may apply in your situation:
“Fear comes from feeling out of control. Hope comes from knowing who is in control. And hope comes from knowing that we have a sovereign, loving God who is in control of every event of our lives.”
God knows what you are going through and he will be faithful Angella. Just hang in there.
wishing you a blessed day.
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Hey you! What’s up? Where did all the “wheeeee!-ing” go? I do pray. So I will pray for you. Sending you lots of mental diet cokes too.
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I said a little prayer for you today and I’ll keep doing the same. May you find the restoration and rejuvenation that you desire and need- keep seeking Him and you will find it. May joy and blessings fill each moment of your day today!
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i don’t even know what to say that will bring you comfort….I wish I did. Somehow words never seem enough, or they appear to be cliche.
“Fear NOT, for I have redeemed you:I have summoned you by name; you are MINE. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fore you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Isreal, your SAVIOUR. Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you…do not be afraid, for I am with you.”
Isaiah 43:1-5
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AND…I love you. But, not as much as the LORD who is forever faithful…AMEN!
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You are covered in prayers, my lady. Take it easy and rest in HIM!
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Glad Matthew knew what you needed! You need a CASB trip for some R&R – are you going to the MCQ workshop?
I hope so ’cause then we could hang out:-)
Big HUGS to you and hope that you sort this all out. Time and perspective usually help immensely but you have three very cute perspectives to help you out, now don’t you?
Feel better soon!
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Life is CRAZY, three kids, work, house stuff, relationships and trying to find time for yourself seems impossible. I’m thinking of you and wished we lived closer so we could chill and put our selves first, if only for a few hours.
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One of the reasons I love your blog is that you write about the good and the bad. I can not even imagine what being a wife, mother and employee must be like but I do know what it feels like to be empty. Prayer is wonderful but please don’t let this get out of hand. I know, from experience, that you don’t really know how low you were until you feel better and then you wonder why you didn’t ask for help.
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Oh honey, don’t I know the feeling. There is a major drought in “my connection with the world” cup. Very empty, very hard to find something to fill it. But that’s okay. Sometimes we just tap out and we need some time to remember what we need or want to fill that cup.
I’ll be thinking of you- and just to mention, you’re awesome. An awesome mom, an awesome wife, an awesome woman and we may live in different countries and live completely different lives, but I sure do aspire to be half the fab you are. Ups, downs, ins and outs, because that’s what makes the world go round!
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I really enjoy reading your blog, it is such a fun, happy blog(and I don’t mean to be a lurker, but it is fun to read!)…anyways I have three boys and a little baby girl…and life is good and full of blessing most days…but I know how it feels to feel empty…don’t let the father of lies fill your mind and heart with overwelming feelings, remember God’s truth, he loves you and will uphold you!!
Psalm 37:23-24 “If the Lord delight’s in a man’s way, He makes his steps firm; though he will stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.”
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First of all, LOVE that song, Love Jars of Clay;) Second, I’m right there with you. The past few weeks for me have been hard, and not sure why. And lately I’ve felt as if my spiritual cup needs refilled as well. But like you, I’m dealing with so many struggles big and small, there isn’t enough time nor energy to blog about it all. My prayers and thoughts are with you. Hugs:)
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Sending some love your way.
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Angella!
I really don’t know what to say to sooth your aching heart, but know that you are loved and thought of often. I’ll send up a little prayer for you tonight. I know what it is like to just feel drained, so my thoughts are with you.
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Oh I TOTALLY can relate. Before you know it work, husband, kids, house, etc have ruled your life and you realize you haven’t touched your Bible in . . . *blush* . . . a month! I’ll pray for you, friend I’ve never met.
Oh yea, and I LOVE that song. Jars of Clay was the first CD I ever bought. 1997. Good year.
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Love you!
Wanna come over tonight after the kids are in bed?
I’ll even open up a bottle of REAL wine!
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I came here through the Blogher roll (you know what I mean). I know I came in a littel late because I read your more current posts and you are better. I thought I’d lead you to my post which will lead to to a funny ebay auction and funny blog. If you have not see this yet you’d get a laugh out of these! :
http://lizas-eyeview.blogspot.com/2007/08/funny-auction-at-ebay.html
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