I don’t talk much about my work life here (I have no desire to be Dooced), but you guys know the generalities. I am working in an office, being all accountantly (That is SO a word, spell check) and there have been ups and downs and I’ve written a vague post about it all and, well. I have spent many weeks in a state of (nausea, and), What should I do?
I could to this! Or that! Or maybe a combination of this AND that. Or! I could do this other thing. Round and round and round it goes. Over and over (AND OVER AND OVER) again.
(Please pray for my husband – he gets to listen to this all day, every day. Multiple times.)
I believe in God, and in Jesus, and in prayer. But I also wish that God (or Jesus!) would write me a letter and say, THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED TO DO. There has been no recorded history of this actually happening and yet, I have wished for this for as long as I can remember. I am a bit of a dreamer, indeed.
This may sound like a tangent but it really isn’t. Emily has been going to the library with her babysitter (A friend of mine) and has discovered Hannah Montana. Matthew, being the Daddy who loves his daughter, had downloaded a bunch of Miley Cyrus songs. And, well. As I made the commute into work on Saturday morning I plugged in my “Country” play list. I listened to the lyrics of The Climb for the first time and I (can’t believe I’m admitting it publicly, and) got a little bit teary.
I can almost see it, that dream I’m dreamin’, but, there’s a voice inside my head saying “you’ll never reach it.”
But I…I’ve gotta keep trying. I’ve gotta keep my head held high.
There’s always gonna be another mountain, I’m always gonna want to make it move, always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I’m gonna have to lose. Ain’t about how fast I get there, ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side.
It’s the climb.
When I told Matthew about it he laughed and said, “I love that God spoke to you through Miley Cyrus.”
My nature is not really one to think that I can pray, and sit, and just wait for answers. It’s more of the vein of making moves and if a door shuts in your face, then you know that is not the way. One of the moves I made came back with a “YES!” and, to me, that’s as big of a sign as I could hope for.
I’m still being vague, I know, but I’m also being completely honest. I’ve been struggling, and a little bit crazy about it all, but this weekend the clarity came. I (finally) know what I need to do, which happens to jive with what I what I want to do and, man. It’s like somebody came over and took fifty pounds off of my shoulders and then treated me to a massage. It’s a little bit awesome.
Thats awesome Angella….good luck with wherever your climb takes you!
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A new adventure is always exciting (+ equally scary)!
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Yay! I’m sure whatever it is, you’ll rock it!
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Glad to hear clarity finally came. I’m constantly requesting God get Facebook – it would streamline things for everybody. So far I’ve been met with silence, I’m taking it as a No. Seriously, dude can flood the earth but catch up with technology….
Good thing He rocks and I couldn’t breath without His grace.
ps. That song rocks and until this morning I had no idea it was Miley! I like some of her tunes and Party In the USA! While annoying is an awesome workout tune, just enough that for 3 minutes I forget the burning in my thighs
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I love it when it all comes together.
You’re clearly in good, if unseen, hands. Take care.
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When you listen with your heart, you’ll know what’s being said, if it took Miley Cyrus, well then so be it.
I’m glad you found an answer, go with it. I wish you best of luck.
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Oh, Miley and her infinite wisdom.
So glad you’re finding some peace and clarity. It’s no fun to flounder.
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Yeah, The Climb did that to me too. Glad I’m not the only one!
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It would be nice if we could get a hand-written letter (or hey, I’d settle for an email!) from God but in reality the answers always come as long as we’re looking for them. They just aren’t also presented to us the way we expect.
I hope your climb will take you where you want to go as well as where you need to go.
(I can’t stand Miley Cyrus for so many reasons but man do I love that song and it makes me a little emotional too.)
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Can’t wait to hear more about how our very big God answered your very big prayers.
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Being the kind of parents we are (the kind who like to go to movies but rarely get a babysitter so we end up taking our kids to lots and lots of kiddie movies) we actually saw the Hannah Montana movie in the theater. I admit I teared up while watching the scene where she sings “The Climb.” The lyrics are definitely great and say what you will about the girl, she can sing the heck out of a good lyric.
I laughed at Matthew’s crack about God speaking to you through Miley Cyrus, both because it was funny and because really, isn’t it amazing that God ever uses ANY of us flawed, sinful human beings to speak through? And yet it’s right there in the Bible, that WE are to be God’s witnesses to the world, even though he knows full well how flawed we human beings are.
I am glad you have gotten a bit of clarity and I hope things get resolved soon! I know how much it sucks when everything’s all up in the air.
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This post made me smile. God can use anything to speak to us and I’m glad that your heart was open to hearing His voice in this song. One of my dear friends from Kentucky introduced me to this song when we were talking about life one day only it came out in her accent as “the Clobb”. We laughed so hard! Now whenever I hear it, I think of my friend Rebecca and her encouragement, faith and kentucky accent.
So excited to see where you are heading and you know you’ve got our support.
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Yay for awesome stuff on the horizon! And now I have The Climb stuck in my head.
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I love that song! Not necessarily the artist per se, but that song speaks to me.
Good luck my friend, I am rooting for you!
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I’ll jump on board and admit that song can make me a tad bit teary eyed as well.
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I’m so SO happy that you got your moment of clarity
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I want to know!
I’ve been familiar with all of Miley’s songs for some time now, my daughters being a tad older than your girl.
This morning they were listening to a chipmunks rendition of Billy Ray Cyrus’ Achy Breaky Heart (kill me now), and I had to explain that the guy who originally did the song was Miley’s Dad.
They thought he must be really, really old.
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I so wasn’t expecting Miley when I read the title! But…it is a great song! Given you (vague) position it probably was the perfect song at the perfect time.
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I love that during our last phone date we ended up talking about (this! yes, and) Billy Ray Cyrus. Oh, Billy Ray. Your mullet will always win.
Three cheers for answers to prayers!
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Amen!
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