I sometimes hesitate at posting about just one of my three kids, as I fear that one day the other two will read my words and feel that they have somehow been neglected or that maybe they do not “rank” as high as one of their siblings. This is in no way a fact, as I have stated many times over that I love all three of my children equally. But differently.
I have my firstborn, Graham, who not only looks like me but is wired so similarly to me that it is borderline ridiculous. I get him. Even better? He gets me.
Then there is Nathan. He looks nothing at all like me and is so different from me in an infinite number of ways. This is what I love about him; he shows me things that I do not think of and I love him for his uniqueness.
And then there is Emily. My youngest. My baby. My girl.
She also has a special place in my heart. We knew that we would be finished our child-bearing years at three kids, as that was what worked for us (and for my body). Based on the babies born into our extended family we were pretty sure that we would have a third boy and be destined to a life of trucks, and superheroes, and full-contact sports. Did I want a girl? Heck, yes. Did I expect to have one? Heck, no.
Then I gave birth with both my doctor and nurse SCREAMING, “IT’S A GIRL!!!”
My body wracked with sobs.
I had a girl. A GIRL.
While another healthy baby boy would have been nothing short of spectacular, I did not realize until that very moment how much my heart had secretly hoped for a girl.
Each and every day I am amazed at how much she not only looks like me, but how much she acts like me. As I relay stories to my Mom over the phone she just laughs and tells me that I have given birth to a “Mini Me.”
It’s like I have been given this gift. My Mom did not keep a diary (and obviously, not a blog) and I have only two photo albums that document the first six years of my life. I know that Emily is her own person, but when she does certain things that I do I feel like I have been given a glimpse into Little Angella. Apart from those moments, I feel like a whole new world is open to me that would not have been there had she been a boy. She loves all things Pink and Purple, she wants to be a Princess (and be referred to as Princess Beauty, FYI) and is a GIRL. JUST LIKE ME.
So, yeah. She’s my girl.
She has a wicked sense of humor and a personality that cannot be contained.
I think she’s pretty neat.
I’m so glad you have her in your life!
She is adorable. I wish I could meet her (and you) in person. One day … maybe!
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Princess Beauty, I succumb to your awesomeness.
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Part of me has always wanted to be the mother of boys, but there’s a deeper part that just FEELS like my first child will be a girl. That has always terrified me, mostly because I’m afraid of seeing the things I don’t like about myself in her. You make it seem pretty great though, thanks for sharing that!
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After three boys, I was CONVINCED this last one was a girl. The whole pregnancy was entirely day and night different than my other three. Was it a girl? NOPE.
Adoption is looking very good.
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This post made me happy. Period. She IS pretty neat, and I’m pretty sure she gets that from you. (No offense, Dad.)
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She is just so sweet… I love her and I don’t even *truly* know her
-Andrea
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Princess Beauty. Love it.
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I, as you know, have always longed for a girl…you just solidified why
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She is pretty neat (and so dang cute), indeed.
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When I was pregnant with Margaret, my Head was saying its a boy, but my Heart was saying Girl. I’m so happy to have one of each.
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She is such a cutie & I thank you for sharing her with us.
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That sounds like me. I have 3 kids and my last is a girl. I thought we were done after our 2 boys, though, and she was a surprise. A wonderful one, though.
That swimsuit is adorable.
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Emily is beautiful! I think she will love reading these blog entires when she’s older. I have maybe 5 photos of me and my mom together and no stories (my mom is freakishly private.) I wish I had more to look back on.
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Must be the preggo hormones or the sounds of my own girl, playing upstairs, but I totally was overcome with emotion reading this post. What a precious thing to have a daughter. I, too, imagined myself with a house full of boys. I may still get closer to where you are (October – baby!), but some days I can’t believe I have a girl, either. A daughter?!!
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I love those photos =)
It seems perfectly natural to me that you would love your three children equally but differently. I hope they never use your blog as a measure of how much or in what ways you adored them; I’m certain they’ll use your actions and the time you spend with them.
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I totally get what you say in a way that only a mother of 2 boys, and a baby girl would.
And my baby girl is definitely 100% a Mini-Me. And it’s just not me that says it. ANYONE who sees her that knew me as a child is astonished by how much she looks (identical) to me and acts like me as a child.
They are pretty special little girls to be able to take after their mommas
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I only know how to be a mommy of girls (since I was blessed with three of them).
And yes, having the pleasure of knowing your daughter, I know for sure that she IS pretty neat…
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I’m so glad I finally clicked over from Kickyboots. All my life I thought I would have boys, and I wanted boys. Then my first baby was a GIRL. And she is the most amazing, perfect, funny, pretty in pink person I could ever have imagined. I love this post.
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Thanks again for sharing the very special love that’s such an obvious and beautiful part of your family. And it just blows me over to think that all your joy-filled times and delights are just a reflection of God’s feelings for us!
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I used to follow your blog and then we moved and were without internet for 1+ years. I have been reading again for the past few months and really enjoy hearing about your gorgeous family. Emily is getting so big and is definitely a sweetie. You even inspired me to have 3 just like you. hee hee Just wanted to say hi, again.
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Princess Beauty is lucky she has a strong & outgoing role model like you in her life!
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“She has a wicked sense of humor and a personality that cannot be contained.”
JUST LIKE YOU!!!
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Mr. A just announced that if we have a kid, he wants a girl. I”m a bit uh, shocked as hell.
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