I’m feeling a little incapable of coping with daily life. I’m tired. So. Very. Tired.
I wish I could blame it on my kids, but after just one night of earplugs and a few firm “Get back to bed” statements, they are sleeping, all night, in their own beds. The way it should be, at least for this family. We haven’t figured out when we’re going to orchestrate their moving in together, but I’m not ready to disturb their uninterrupted sleep right now.
The real problem? I’m the bad sleeper. I go to sleep fine, but if I have to get up for any reason (think – squished bladder), I’ll lie awake afterwards. For hours. My brain turns on, and I cannot for the life of me get it to STOP. I go over the previous day, what we’ve got planned in the coming days, how on earth I can get myself back to sleep…you get the picture. Last night I was awake from 3 until 5:30 this morning. Slept until 7:30, and then dragged my butt out of bed.
Honey is fantastic, per usual, and told me to get back to bed. But he and my brother have been working from 7am until 9pm on the house, and I didn’t want to hinder their progress. I want this house done as much as he does, if not more.
So I took the kids to the beach this morning (and met up with Amanda and sweet Avelyn). Came home for lunch, put Nathan down for a nap and did some much needed cleaning around here. Spent the late afternoon playing with both boys. From dinner on I have been mostly on the couch, because I am done.
Honey did bath time, and we got the kids to bed. We tried to figure out a way that we could get away, if only for one night. Without the kids. He and I haven’t had much (if any) alone time for almost 2 months. Sleeping doesn’t count.
We have a lovely cabin, and would give anything to just have an overnight trip up there together. Problem is, everyone else is just as busy as we are. And even when people offer, we are the types that hate to impose. It’s a vicious cycle.
My exhaustion today is just helping to keep me humble. Remind me that I can’t do it ALL, no matter how much I want to. Remind me that God has it all under control…and that even He took a day of rest. I just feel like that day isn’t happening, and I’m burnt. And emotional. And in desperate need of encouragement. Great combo.
I’d like to feel more like myself tomorrow. My utter exhaustion should help me get an uninterrupted sleep tonight. Here’s hoping.
You KNOW you can impose on us anytime. The offer stands, we’re just waiting for you to take us up on it. Just think, you would do it for me, and I WANT to do it for you. So let’s pick a weekend in September, and you guys can get up to the cabin. Or, just out for supper.
Hope you get some rest tonight.
Love ya!
Karen
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If I lived nearby, Angella, I would offer to take your cuties off your hands for a night… But I think Lethbridge is a bit too far to drive for a day.
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I hope that you feel peace and rest soon, Angella.
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Hi Angella… Its so bad when you can’t sleep and you just know you HAVE to get up in the morning.I had the worst insomnia with both babies, I just had to surrender in the end and get up,I found that i actually got tired alot faster and went back to sleep sooner.Maybe it might work who knows… I hope you are feeling better and that you and your “honey” do take up the offer of friends and have some time together soon…
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It was great to see you after so long and I hope you get to rest up, and soon! Being pregnant makes it harder to bounce back from the fatigue of your crazy work week, the neverending renos, and chasing after two rambunctious kidlets all day long. You’re doing great, Ange!
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I was thinking the other day…I don’t know how you can do it…keeping up with 2 boys, while prego, in the heat, working as well, feeding the masses. It’s nice to see that you are in fact normal, and that you actually aren’t a superhero. You were starting to make the rest of us look bad
Take a much needed break!! I’ve barely heard you complain at all about being tired even though you are carrying a baby around all day. Wish I could offer to help!!
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If I lived close to you I would gladly take your boys I seem to know what to do with BOYS:). There is nothing like getting away with your Hubby something we have kept up even though we had 6 kids. All the best with the remaining 2? months
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you know that if I could, I’d be there in a heart beat! I was hanging out with some of my friends this weekend and we started talking about how iron sharpens iron. The question “who is your iron?” was posed. And after some consideration I realized that you are mine. You inspire me to be a better person today and in the future. You are an amazing mother, wife and friend. And your family is my example as to what a healthy family should look like. I love you SO much!
p.s. mom’s been going through old photo albums and we found an old picture of you…6 inch high bangs and all
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I think you should get Lance to take care of the kids for the night. I don’t believe he would say no. Well, try to get some rest.
I love you!
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I feel for ya with the sleep issue! I’m a light sleeper to begin with, and once I have a few good hours under my belt, if awoken my brain switch flicks on full tilt too! So ANNOYING!
Anyway, hope today looks better for you…I know a ‘good’ night’s (uninterupted) sleep always helps me to see the silver lining!
(BTW…thanks for sharing about your scar. I’m glad you didn’t end up having a section! I’m hoping I won’t ever have to have another one, but am more realistic going into it this time at least).
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Hey Ang…well if you ever need a break you can always drop them off with me..my yard is all set up for it thanks to the wounderfull people at the church. I know you dont know me that well..but the offer is always there, I always have kids at my house, weekends and evenings..the joy of doing daycare for a living..plus it would be boys for Riley to play with as most of the kids i watch are girls…lol. Even if you just want to come for coffee…or tea..or whatever you like.
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Girl, you need to take it easy! I know what it is like to lie awake at night and not be able to sleep (it has been happening to me for the past 8 days, since I arrived in Canada) but you’ve also got to rest during the day when you can and try not to take on too much.
I would offer to babysit which is ridiculous seeing I live on the other side of the world, but I see you’ve had several offers already …. so take them!! Seriously, you deserve a break and what better time than just before baby arrives? You aren’t going to get another break away from kids for a long time, so now is your chance!!
Hope you have a good sleep tonight, and feel refreshed in the morning. ((HUGS))
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I feel that way too sometimes and I am not pregnant and we aren’t doing renos…
Hope this was a bad day and the rest were much, much better! We simply can’t do it all, no matter how hard we try
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