Hey, Nathan.

As both you and I have exclaimed many times over this past week, it’s a little unbelievable that you are five. FIVE. You can’t believe it because you have never been five. For you, five is a magical place that you go to and are suddenly considered “all grown up.” Your baby years are stripped away and left by the wayside as you start new adventures that include school and sports and one day giving your Mom a heart attack when the girls who already flock to you start to dial our phone number.

I can’t believe that you are five because despite what the calendar tells me, I’m pretty sure that I brought you home from the hospital just yesterday. You with the full head of hair and long chicken legs and a face that looked so much like your Daddy’s but in newborn form. It was a little bit weird and a whole lot of awesome to have this new baby who was so completely different from the one who had come before him. Instead of being a carbon copy of any family member, whether in looks or personality, you proved from that very first day that you were different. Special. Original. Unique.

I have wrestled a bit with how to write to you on your birthday. I contemplated posting some of my favorite photos of you and writing little snippets about them but it didn’t seem like it would be enough. For you are my “middle child” and if you believe the hype, your birth order puts you at a bit of a loss. The firstborn gets all of the glory and the baby gets all of the attention. The middle child is stuck floundering somewhere in between.

I want to tell you to ignore the stereotype. For you, my sweet Nathan, get all of the glory and all of the attention that you deserve. There is something about you that makes strangers light up in your presence. People who know you well look forward to their encounters with you because you exude love and happiness, wrapped in a blanket of sunshine.

It absolutely makes your day to give hugs away. You like to receive them, of course, but if someone asks you for a hug your face lights up to a wattage that doesn’t technically exist and you wrap your long wiry body around them and squeeze with all of your might. You also spread this love to people who don’t ask for it and while there is the occasional moment where a mere acquaintance is accosted by your love and unsure of how to respond, they always reciprocate because, well, how could they not?

You are a natural athlete and master any sport that you try almost immediately. You pop wheelies on your bike, skate circles around me and knock the baseball out of the park every. single. time.

You have the cutest little lisp that makes the most innocuous words a source of glee for the rest of us (See: “Thought” becomes “Fart” and the family dissolves into fits and giggles.) You love cars, and trucks and anything propelled my a motor. On that note, you love all things robotic; Star Wars and Transformers occupy a lot of your imagination. Bumblebee is your favorite and, well, who can really blame you?

I have often commented about the fact that you look absolutely nothing like me and one hundred and fifty percent like your Daddy. It’s a little startling, really. Each and every day I find myself looking at you and hoping to find a glimmer of myself in the face that I am looking upon. It’s not that I think seeing that sliver of me would make me love you any more than I already do; it’s more of a fascination that despite our physical differences we are eternally bonded. You are a piece of me and hold one-quarter of my heart in your hands.

One thing that we love to argue about is who loves the other one “more.” I’ll say that I love you and you’ll say, “I love you more” and I’ll fire back, “I love YOU more.” And so it goes. On and on and on.

But this is where I need to pull the grown-up card and state for the world to see that I love you more. I’m bigger and as such, my heart is full of more love. I win.

But I’ll let you win because I love you. More.

Love, Mommy


I clicked on last year’s birthday post and saw that I had posted my all-time favorite photos of him. It only makes sense to post them here and add a few more from his fifth year.





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  1. Hannah August 25, 2009 12:40 am edit

    Happy Birthday, Nathan!! Five is a great age!
    And what an awesome post, Angella. I love seeing the photo “journeys” that are typically posted on birthdays. It’s incredible seeing how they have grown over the years. And amazingly, I looked at those photos and realised that I have watched Nathan grow on this here blog for almost 4 years, too! WOW.

    Hannah’s last blog post..Twenty-one

  2. Dayna August 25, 2009 2:04 am edit

    Happy Birthday Nathan!! I miss you and love you so much!

    Dayna’s last blog post..Ask Matt

  3. Angella August 25, 2009 4:44 am edit

    Your site is lovely – and the pictures… wow!

    I was poking around over at OMSH and happened to see one of your comments. I had to stop over and say ‘hi’, cause we have the same name!! I have never seen anyone else who spells it that way. The kicker, my last name starts with D too.

    Happy Birthday to your boy, a handsome one he is!

    Angella’s last blog post..Beautiful Sunsets

  4. Sharon August 25, 2009 6:52 am edit

    What a beautiful post! Happy Birthday, Nathan!!

    Sharon’s last blog post..Friday Love List ? No theme this week

  5. Jen August 25, 2009 7:09 am edit

    Happy Birthday Nathan! He really is a sweet guy and you described him so perfectly. Hope he has a great 5th birthday!

  6. C @ Kid Things August 25, 2009 7:12 am edit

    Age 5 really IS a good age. Happy Birthday, Nathan!

    C @ Kid Things’s last blog post..I Need to Work on My Sports Analogies

  7. Mr Lady August 25, 2009 7:34 am edit

    Awww, DUDE! Happy birthday, Mr 5 year old.

    Mr Lady’s last blog post..Frugal Is The New Burnt Sienna

  8. schmutzie August 25, 2009 7:35 am edit

    That’s one handsome kid you got there.

    schmutzie’s last blog post..Me at MamaPop – Heidi Montag, Pratt, Whatever: The Joke Was Never Very Funny

  9. Mama in the City August 25, 2009 7:59 am edit

    Okay. That makes me a little teary. A five year old son. Life is good when it is time marked with babies birthdays!

    Mama in the City’s last blog post..How to bring your camera into the delivery room (and live to talk about it)

  10. Sizzle August 25, 2009 8:07 am edit

    He really is one adorable kid. I love that he’s a hugger!

    Sizzle’s last blog post..What the hell is she talking about? No one knows.

  11. Ashley August 25, 2009 8:24 am edit

    Happy Birthday to Nathan and Mommy (after all the wrok to get ’em here it’s your day too!)

    Ashley’s last blog post..Weekend Weddings

  12. Amanda Brown August 25, 2009 8:24 am edit

    Happy birthday, Nathan! I think he’s your photography muse. 90% of my favourite photos of yours have him in it. Future male model? I think so. :)

    Amanda Brown’s last blog post..Forgotten Summer

  13. melanie August 25, 2009 8:30 am edit

    Those eyes are amazing! Especially in that last photo. What a lovely little boy you have (well, boys really but this post is about Nathan). Happy Birthday Nathan!

    melanie’s last blog post..I think I drank too much tea today?

  14. Kerri Anne August 25, 2009 8:38 am edit

    I MISS him. Happy! Day of Cake, little buddy.

    Kerri Anne’s last blog post..Choose Your Own Adventure

  15. jana August 25, 2009 8:43 am edit

    what a great post and what WONDERFUL photos – all I could think when I was looking at the photos is what a great resource they will be when it comes time to make the ever-so-famous wedding slideshow, but who knows, maybe by the time Nathan gets married, that will be a thing of the past. But these birthday posts, these will always be something special.

  16. Elizabeth August 25, 2009 9:18 am edit

    Happy Birthday, dear Nathan. Happy Birthday, to you!!

    Elizabeth’s last blog post..Pre-Baby Babymoon

  17. Camels & Chocolate August 25, 2009 9:42 am edit

    I love the shot of him with the football! Well, all of them really, but that’s my favorite!

    Camels & Chocolate’s last blog post..Who Let the Dogs Out?

  18. samantha jo campen August 25, 2009 9:55 am edit

    Aw, happy birthday!

    What a beautiful post. And those photos are AMAZING!

    samantha jo campen’s last blog post..Devil in the room

  19. hillary August 25, 2009 9:58 am edit

    Happy birthday, Nathan!
    Great photos, Angella. I love the one where his face is all scrunched up.

    hillary’s last blog post..And I Can Throw A Volkswagon A Whole Half Block

  20. mpotter August 25, 2009 10:07 am edit

    adorably handsome.
    and yes, i always thought 5 was a magical birthday, too.
    (that’s an upcoming post)

    here’s hoping that the year is as magical & fun as ever!
    happy birthday [to you both]

    mpotter’s last blog post..ciento

  21. Chris August 25, 2009 10:56 am edit

    He is beautiful! Truly!!!

    Happy Birthday, Nathan!

    P.S. the last photo is my favorite!

    Chris’s last blog post..Take It and (become a) Run(ner) Thursday

  22. Tamara August 25, 2009 11:44 am edit

    Happy Birthday Nathan!

    Can you believe I am just now realizing that the barbecue on the weekend was for Nathan’s birthday? I’m sorry we couldn’t make it. And seriously….what happened to my memory??? It disappeared when I had the kids and I would really like to know where it went.

  23. Shelly August 25, 2009 12:39 pm edit

    Happy Birthday Nathan! What a great post for him to read one day! And a lovable hugger? AWESOME. :P

    Shelly’s last blog post..Monday

  24. Kristabella August 25, 2009 12:39 pm edit

    Happy birthday Nathan!

    Don’t tell your brother or your sister, but you’re my favorite! It’s a middle kid bond we share!

    Kristabella’s last blog post..A Kind of Drunk Pied Piper

  25. Elaine August 25, 2009 2:10 pm edit

    How does yesterday turn into FIVE years? I just don’t get it either. Happy Birthday to Nathan! Such a sweet post to your sweet boy.

    Elaine’s last blog post..Gates

  26. Heather @ Domestic Extraordinaire August 25, 2009 2:29 pm edit

    Happy Birthday Nathan! I hope your fifth year is more awesome than the last four put together.

    Heather @ Domestic Extraordinaire’s last blog post..You Capture-Motion

  27. Heidi F August 25, 2009 3:42 pm edit

    He is an enchanting boy – Happy Birthday Nathan!

  28. Vicki August 25, 2009 6:28 pm edit

    Happy Birthday, Nathan! You DO make me smile when I see you because you are so sweet and kind and polite! And so gosh darn cute!

    Vicki’s last blog post..Megan. She’s 9

  29. Jen August 25, 2009 6:31 pm edit

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHAN!!! I can’t believe you’re five ALREADY either!!

    Jen’s last blog post..band geek: revisited

  30. Kami's Khlopchyk August 25, 2009 8:28 pm edit

    What a sweet boy! Happy Birthday Nathan!

    Ps I swear it was yesterday I brought Kamden home too. It’s a conspiracy, I swear ;)

    Kami’s Khlopchyk’s last blog post..My most amazing discovery, yet

  31. Laura Duksta August 26, 2009 2:33 pm edit

    Brilliant and Beautiful!!! I love how this wonderful virtual world allows us to connect with people we wouldn’t have otherwise gotten a chance to know :-)
    I found your page because of the phrase “I Love You More” …I’ve written a book by the same name that if you don’t have it yet I think you and your son will LOVE IT!
    I always tell people that I win the game because I wrote the book. I love, love, love the way you share about your son and what it’s like for you as he turns FIVE. What an incredible gift this blog world is!
    Have a Bright and Blessed Lifetime!
    Keep Shining!
    Laura Duksta
    author, NY Times Bestseller, I Love You More ;-)

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