Oh, you guys. I have not been well.
I know how easy it can be to roll your eyes when someone harps unending about how under the weather they are because you wonder, really? Is it seriously that bad? I get the occasional sniffles or “off” day but half of them can be chalked up to hormones and the rest usually have to do with the fact that a poor night’s sleep or a chill in the air can cause my nose to run. Even when I do have a cold I load up on medicine and plow through my days much as I usually do.
These past ten days have been something altogether different.
The first part of The Virus That Sucked My Life Force was documented last Sunday night when, for the first time in many days, I felt the fog start to lift. I could form coherent thoughts! I had an urge to actually write something! I managed to shower! I was sure that once I got one more full night’s sleep under my belt that I would be back to my normal self.
I was horribly, hilariously, wrong.
Monday saw me even worse than the days preceding. I had to go into work for an important meeting and my well-placed make-up and sheer willpower to keep my eyes open helped me somehow survive the morning. I limped my way to my Doctor that afternoon because I feared that maybe I was fighting something worse than the common flu virus. She listened to my lungs and looked at my tonsils and felt my lymph nodes and, no. Nothing more than a Virus Of Doom. She told me to drink plenty of fluids and rest as much as I could and that it would take seven to ten days to start to feel better.
SEVEN TO TEN DAYS.
I’ll spare you the play-by-play because it basically consisted of sleeping and eating(ish) and sleeping and going to the bathroom and sleeping and cuddling with my kids and sleeping and DID I MENTION THAT I SLEPT A LOT?
There is one word that pretty much sums up the last ten days of my life.
Numb.
My brain was numb, my thoughts were numb, my feelings were numb, my taste buds were numb. Heck, my nose and lips were numb. I didn’t laugh. I didn’t cry. I wasn’t angry. Or sad or happy. Or anything. Other than sleepy, that is.
I thought that I should be…something about it all but I couldn’t focus enough to figure out what that “something” should be. I wondered if I should maybe write my way through it but I was too tired to type and I didn’t even know what to say and I felt so…I don’t know…removed? Fuzzy? Blurry? Unfocused?
I feel like I’ve been in limbo. Just, hanging.
I’ve been here before, almost two years ago. I was horribly ill, as were the kids (months later, our doctor concluded that we had survived the very first wave of H1N1). At the time I thought maybe I was making it more than it was and then (AND THEN) I (we) got better. I got better and all I could say to anyone and everyone that would listen was that, “I was SO SICK and I didn’t realize HOW SICK I WAS until I was ALL BETTER.”
I have that same feeling right now. Something snapped today and I felt like the fog lifted. I drove home from work and sang along with the music for the first time in a long time. I laughed, loudly, which I though I’d forgot how to do. I got teary over something silly and then laughed because that is my normal.
I feel good. I feel all better. The fog has lifted.
I feel excited to kick “numb” to the curb and get back to “awesome.” Or, at least, “normal.”
So glad you’re feeling back to your ol’ self! Being that sick is horrible anytime, but it always feels just slightly worse when you’ve got kids.
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So pleased that you are feeling better! HUGS!!
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I am so glad you are feeling better!!
I’m just waiting for my yearly illness. Since I am unemployed right now I don’t have any co-workers to catch anything from. Although I am waiting for Eric to bring home the virus of doom from school for me.
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I’ve been thinking of you and hoping that you were feeling better. A whole slew of junk is circling the town here. I am warding it off with all my might. Welcome back!
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Daaah! I’m so glad you’re feeling better, please bless a full recovery happens, you know, by Sunday or something.
xoxox
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angella Reply:
November 29th, 2010 at 8:56 am
I’m at 90%! Which is good enough for me.
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Glad you are finally feeling better, that sounds like an awful virus! Enjoy the weekend with your fabulous family!
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That sounds like a horrible flu. I sincerely hope my flu shot works against that particular strain. Brutal. Glad you’re feeling better!
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Glad you’re feeling better, extended sickness sucks.
Now that hubby and I both work at home we never get sick (not exposed to anyone’s germs!) which is awesome but I’m now super paranoid about being around sick people… my immune system is probably nil. So I’m one of those hand sanitizer freaks. Yay.
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Oooo I wanna feel all better too! I’m in day 7 of exactly what you are describing only slightly more gross and today I bathed for the sake of the nation! I didn’t realize it was possible to clock in so many sleep hours… Glad to hear you’re feeling better and looking forward to feeling better too!
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angella Reply:
November 29th, 2010 at 8:56 am
I hope that you’re on the mend! It’s so great to be back in the land of the living.
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Ugh. Although I’m rarely sick (KNOCK ON WOOD), I know that fog well – it sounds like my depression fog, where nothing matters, nothing’s good, nothing’s bad, everything’s just blah. I know that’s not what it was for you, obviously, it’s just what it reminded me of. THAT FEELING SUCKS.
Glad you’re feeling better!!!!! Hopefully your family stays that way for a while!!
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Glad you’re on the mend!
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Glad you are feeling better. You keep a tight schedule with work and family and all that you do- getting sick is like throwing a monkey wrench into the high efficiency machine that is your life!
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angella Reply:
November 29th, 2010 at 8:57 am
Indeed. Which is why I went a little crazy this weekend cramming stuff in.
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Yay for feeling better!
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Glad you’re feeling better! I can’t wait til I can same the same for myself (though I am not nearly as ill as you were).
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